Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Thursday, March 22, 2007
expanding the possibilities on a DAILY!
“The thing about performance, even if it's only an illusion, is that it is a celebration of the fact that we do contain within ourselves infinite possibilities.”
-SydneySmith
This was sent to me in an e-mail by a fellow cast mate of the Bindlestiff Women's show 2007.
She's awesome...and so is that quote. It sums up one of the many reasons why I chose to perform as opposed to sit on my ass and do NOTHING!
Because in life, the possibilities are endless...people need to wake up and realize: You don't have to be stuck in that job, in that relationship, in debt, in hunger, in sadness, in hate, in society's box of normalcy. No, you can have whatever you wish...
Don't believe me? Watch the doc, "The Secret" or "What the Bleep Do We Know"!
-SydneySmith
This was sent to me in an e-mail by a fellow cast mate of the Bindlestiff Women's show 2007.
She's awesome...and so is that quote. It sums up one of the many reasons why I chose to perform as opposed to sit on my ass and do NOTHING!
Because in life, the possibilities are endless...people need to wake up and realize: You don't have to be stuck in that job, in that relationship, in debt, in hunger, in sadness, in hate, in society's box of normalcy. No, you can have whatever you wish...
Don't believe me? Watch the doc, "The Secret" or "What the Bleep Do We Know"!
Monday, March 19, 2007
you know what I feel like watching?
"The NeverEnding Story"! I have no idea why, it's just something about oldskool 80's fantasy movies that seem so calming right now. hmmmm, puts a smile on my face!
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
In honor of MARCH: National Women's History Month
"Whats up with all the conditions? Why are women so demanding? You're such a Bitch!"
Wow, can you believe the stupid things that come out of men's mouths?
Don't worry.... this won't be a typical Man-Hating rant. No this is more a product of a good 19 minutes of shedding off negative energy. Inspired by the ignorance the majority of men today in my generation have. And the way they think they can just disrespect us women.
So when men ask me questions such as these (example: Dang, why are you so uptight?) What I really hear is...Why do women deserve those conditions, those demands, and....my respect?
I'm sick of having to explain myself...but to honor the women that came before me...and for those girls growing into womenhood...let me spell it out for you:
Because honey, not matter how much the world would like to think everything is fair nowadays...it's not.
Because for the past 100 years conditions for us have been unfair and down right shitty!
Because some of us have finally seen the light. And have come to realize that as women we are ...not dumb...not stupid...not inferior!
Because in this new generation of women, we're looking out for ourselves (not our boyfriends, not our bosses, or our husbands).
Because in looking out for ourselves, we're not going to submissively ask politely anymore.
Because we're not going to wait around and hope you'll notice the things we deserve.
Because you won't. You know why?
Because you're too busy looking out for yourself too. Which...
Because you're a man...it's "okay" to look our for just yourself.
Because when you look out for yourself...it's not seen as being selfish or "diva-ish"...It's seen as being a MAN. Being assertive. And knowing what you want!
SO, I know you want to view us "demanding" women & judge us as bitches or "divas" or what ever pathetic jab you think of. But let me tell you...without us strong women, you'd be motherless, hopeless, and even more less of a man then you are today.
Because (and what pisses me off the most) if I was born with the same equipment you were endowed with...you wouldn't feel the need to ask me those questions in the first place or make those quick judgments about me. You'd blindly accept me the way I was and actually take notice that I was an assertive and straight-forward guy.
So don't come at me with "You're too demanding" or "why all the conditions?"
Because unlike you, I'm strong enough to be who I am and NOT make excuses or worse...apologize for who I am! We women are the way we are, the way our past has built us...STRONG-intelligent-take-no-shit-from-anybody-kick-ass women!
and you better NOT respond to this with a "You go girl"!
Wow, can you believe the stupid things that come out of men's mouths?
Don't worry.... this won't be a typical Man-Hating rant. No this is more a product of a good 19 minutes of shedding off negative energy. Inspired by the ignorance the majority of men today in my generation have. And the way they think they can just disrespect us women.
So when men ask me questions such as these (example: Dang, why are you so uptight?) What I really hear is...Why do women deserve those conditions, those demands, and....my respect?
I'm sick of having to explain myself...but to honor the women that came before me...and for those girls growing into womenhood...let me spell it out for you:
Because honey, not matter how much the world would like to think everything is fair nowadays...it's not.
Because for the past 100 years conditions for us have been unfair and down right shitty!
Because some of us have finally seen the light. And have come to realize that as women we are ...not dumb...not stupid...not inferior!
Because in this new generation of women, we're looking out for ourselves (not our boyfriends, not our bosses, or our husbands).
Because in looking out for ourselves, we're not going to submissively ask politely anymore.
Because we're not going to wait around and hope you'll notice the things we deserve.
Because you won't. You know why?
Because you're too busy looking out for yourself too. Which...
Because you're a man...it's "okay" to look our for just yourself.
Because when you look out for yourself...it's not seen as being selfish or "diva-ish"...It's seen as being a MAN. Being assertive. And knowing what you want!
SO, I know you want to view us "demanding" women & judge us as bitches or "divas" or what ever pathetic jab you think of. But let me tell you...without us strong women, you'd be motherless, hopeless, and even more less of a man then you are today.
Because (and what pisses me off the most) if I was born with the same equipment you were endowed with...you wouldn't feel the need to ask me those questions in the first place or make those quick judgments about me. You'd blindly accept me the way I was and actually take notice that I was an assertive and straight-forward guy.
So don't come at me with "You're too demanding" or "why all the conditions?"
Because unlike you, I'm strong enough to be who I am and NOT make excuses or worse...apologize for who I am! We women are the way we are, the way our past has built us...STRONG-intelligent-take-no-shit-from-anybody-kick-ass women!
and you better NOT respond to this with a "You go girl"!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Still in bed....can't sleep
Can't sleep. Should Sleep. Still Sick. Blah!
It's the head cold that won't stop. Tried to go into work today...got 30 min. of work done, then had a 2 hour conference call. The whole time I'm thinking "my head feel like it's going to explode or that it already did & I'm left with the remains of that nuclear explosion" also thinking "concentrate on what the fuck is goin on in this call...you'll be tested later, moron!"
After that excrutiating call, I called it quits. Went home. Probably got everyone in the office sick. :P
One good thing that came out of today...Dad came by to drop off a care package of:
Food: Mexican
Oranges
Tea: Mint Magic (with a unicorn on the box! Cool!)
Meds
Chicken Soup
Tortillas
and Monterey Jack Cheese
He said, he got the last two items so I can make quesedillas. Daddy's the best! He still remembers what my favorite cheese was growing up as a kid. And the Unicorn on the tea box...nice touch. He really knows how to make me feel better. I'm blessed.
Screw what people say! I'll ALWAYS be Daddy's lil girl!
It's the head cold that won't stop. Tried to go into work today...got 30 min. of work done, then had a 2 hour conference call. The whole time I'm thinking "my head feel like it's going to explode or that it already did & I'm left with the remains of that nuclear explosion" also thinking "concentrate on what the fuck is goin on in this call...you'll be tested later, moron!"
After that excrutiating call, I called it quits. Went home. Probably got everyone in the office sick. :P
One good thing that came out of today...Dad came by to drop off a care package of:
Food: Mexican
Oranges
Tea: Mint Magic (with a unicorn on the box! Cool!)
Meds
Chicken Soup
Tortillas
and Monterey Jack Cheese
He said, he got the last two items so I can make quesedillas. Daddy's the best! He still remembers what my favorite cheese was growing up as a kid. And the Unicorn on the tea box...nice touch. He really knows how to make me feel better. I'm blessed.
Screw what people say! I'll ALWAYS be Daddy's lil girl!
Monday, February 26, 2007
Grrrrrrrrrrrrr
Current Mood: Aggravated
Is it soo hard to have a boyfriend that will drop everything to come and take care of you when you're sick?
Things to manifest today:
Vietnamese Soup with extra Hot Sauce
Sponge Cake for dessert
Cough Drops
Cold Medecine
Heroes (past 2 weeks episodes)
LOVE
& Someone to give me these things while I'm stuck in bed feeling HORRIBLE
When I want it:
NOW!!!
enlightened thought of the day:
Being sick makes me needy & crabby...oh and Vietnamese Soup is good for colds
Is it soo hard to have a boyfriend that will drop everything to come and take care of you when you're sick?
Things to manifest today:
Vietnamese Soup with extra Hot Sauce
Sponge Cake for dessert
Cough Drops
Cold Medecine
Heroes (past 2 weeks episodes)
LOVE
& Someone to give me these things while I'm stuck in bed feeling HORRIBLE
When I want it:
NOW!!!
enlightened thought of the day:
Being sick makes me needy & crabby...oh and Vietnamese Soup is good for colds
"Calling in Sick"...AGAIN!
Currently listening to: The Skyflakes "Calling in Sick"
"Hit the snooze and sleep I'm calling in sick
Fake my cough and smile I'm calling in sick
Lay here for a while and make up my mind
Lick my tabs it's time to go on a trip"
So after an 8 hour day of rehearsals (Bindlestiff's Women's Show & Vagina Monologues Rehearsal)...I went home drained, exhausted, nose stuffed, and head a bit feverish. I always know when I'm coming down with something when my eyes feel like hot coals.
Last night, I lay in bed half asleep/half conscience...watching the A-listers, the Big Shots, and the Underdogs decked out in designer gowns and penguin suits..aka the 79th Academy Awards. I usually don't watch the ceremony. My attention span is limited to who's wearing who/what and then the end of the night: the re-caps and the big party coverage.
But because I was on the brink of a cold...I managed to nap inbetween important awards, Ellen's witty & hilrious hosting skills/celeb banter, & some what entertaining commercials. (Sidenote: Ellen & I share the same b-day: Jan. 26th!)
As the last three awards were being handed out...I awoke to Forest's hearfelt speech. As he spoke...i started to get chills. I was watching another actor take the words right out of my journal. His acceptance speech word for word is as follows:
“Thank you. Thank you. Just a second, just a second. OK. Take it (in).
OK. I wrote something down, because I thought if it would happen that I would be a little overwhelmed and I am. So, OK.
When I was a kid, the only way that I saw movies was from the backseat of my family's car. At the drive-in. And, it wasn't my reality to think I would be acting in movies, so receiving this honor tonight tells me that it's possible. It is possible for a kid from east Texas, raised in South Central L.A. in Carson, who believes in his dreams, commits himself to them with his heart, to touch them, and to have them happen.
Because when I first started acting, it was because of my desire to connect to everyone. To that thing inside each of us. That light that I believe exists in all of us. Because acting for me is about believing in that connection and it's a connection so strong, it's a connection so deep, that we feel it. And through our combined belief, we can create a new reality.
So I want to thank my fellow believers in The Last King of Scotland. I want to thank Peter, Jeremy, Andrea, Lisa, Charles, Kevin, James McAvoy, Kerry, Stephen, Fox, DNA, Channel Four. I want to thank the people of Uganda, who helped this film have a spirit. And finally, I want to thank my mom and my dad. I want to thank my wife Keisha, my children, my ancestors, who continue to guide my steps. And God, God who believes in us all. And who's given me this moment, in this lifetime, that I will hopefully carry to the end of my lifetime into the next lifetime. Thank you.”
I know you don't believe me. You're reading this entry and sayin..."no way". So, to end your skeptism... This is an excerpt from my Spiritual Journal...a journal I've kept since 2003:
"I cut this out of Blackbook Magazine. WHY? Because it's a reminder that everyone in this Universe is connected (whether we realize it or not) to each other and God. This picture is how I envision God sees us, great points of LIGHT, all connected to each other, all beautiful (no matter what "sins" we've commited), and all glorious together."
The picture i was talking about in my journal is a piece done by artist, Angie Drakopoulous:
Another piece of his speech that struck a chord in me, was his appreciation to his ancestors. Ever since I was a teenager, I knew the importance of my ancestors. I think it's something ingrained into the Filipino-American culture. To always appreciate the family that came before you. To understand and give gratitude for the sacrifices they gave to make your life what it is today. Without them, I wouldn't be here.
And after my last grandpa passed away in 2003, I felt something. Like Voltron: Protector of the Universe! (ok, this is a geeky analogy, but on point nonetheless)
When my grandpa passed on to the other side, It was like Voltron must feel when each of the five Lions come together to create him/her. It was as if his soul infused with all my ancestors to guide and protect me. (To Western Christians, it's like the belief in Angels). I felt like I had another ally on my side. To help me along my God-Given path. One that would help look out for me. An ally that had my back! I feel this and I appreciate my ancestors.
Forest stated in an interview, "I wasn't sure what was going to happen tonight but I thought something magical was going to happen," Whitaker said backstage after receiving the award. "Because I could feel the breath on my neck and the tingling on my body. For me it is like my ancestors speaking to me and they are saying to me, 'We are with you.'"
And like Forest Whitaker, I too started to act, not for fame or money, but because I wanted to give something back to this world. To give to my audience. To share with an audience a piece of me. To wake up audiences around the world through my art. To be a vessel that gives a voice to others that don't have a chance to tell their stories. To in turn change the world positively. And I feel I can do that in my acting, writing, and comedic delivery.
And just like Mr. Whitaker...Someday when the Universe is ready and with help from God & my ancestors, i too will win an Oscar. No, not for Best Actress or even for Best Supporting Actress...But for Best Original Screenplay! :)
Dang, not only is he a BLessed soul with great intentions...but he also has a HOT wife
To watch his full acceptance speech, cut & paste this link into your browser:
http://www.firstshowing.net/2007/02/26/forest-whitakers-acceptance-speech/
"Hit the snooze and sleep I'm calling in sick
Fake my cough and smile I'm calling in sick
Lay here for a while and make up my mind
Lick my tabs it's time to go on a trip"
So after an 8 hour day of rehearsals (Bindlestiff's Women's Show & Vagina Monologues Rehearsal)...I went home drained, exhausted, nose stuffed, and head a bit feverish. I always know when I'm coming down with something when my eyes feel like hot coals.
Last night, I lay in bed half asleep/half conscience...watching the A-listers, the Big Shots, and the Underdogs decked out in designer gowns and penguin suits..aka the 79th Academy Awards. I usually don't watch the ceremony. My attention span is limited to who's wearing who/what and then the end of the night: the re-caps and the big party coverage.
But because I was on the brink of a cold...I managed to nap inbetween important awards, Ellen's witty & hilrious hosting skills/celeb banter, & some what entertaining commercials. (Sidenote: Ellen & I share the same b-day: Jan. 26th!)
As the last three awards were being handed out...I awoke to Forest's hearfelt speech. As he spoke...i started to get chills. I was watching another actor take the words right out of my journal. His acceptance speech word for word is as follows:
“Thank you. Thank you. Just a second, just a second. OK. Take it (in).
OK. I wrote something down, because I thought if it would happen that I would be a little overwhelmed and I am. So, OK.
When I was a kid, the only way that I saw movies was from the backseat of my family's car. At the drive-in. And, it wasn't my reality to think I would be acting in movies, so receiving this honor tonight tells me that it's possible. It is possible for a kid from east Texas, raised in South Central L.A. in Carson, who believes in his dreams, commits himself to them with his heart, to touch them, and to have them happen.
Because when I first started acting, it was because of my desire to connect to everyone. To that thing inside each of us. That light that I believe exists in all of us. Because acting for me is about believing in that connection and it's a connection so strong, it's a connection so deep, that we feel it. And through our combined belief, we can create a new reality.
So I want to thank my fellow believers in The Last King of Scotland. I want to thank Peter, Jeremy, Andrea, Lisa, Charles, Kevin, James McAvoy, Kerry, Stephen, Fox, DNA, Channel Four. I want to thank the people of Uganda, who helped this film have a spirit. And finally, I want to thank my mom and my dad. I want to thank my wife Keisha, my children, my ancestors, who continue to guide my steps. And God, God who believes in us all. And who's given me this moment, in this lifetime, that I will hopefully carry to the end of my lifetime into the next lifetime. Thank you.”
I know you don't believe me. You're reading this entry and sayin..."no way". So, to end your skeptism... This is an excerpt from my Spiritual Journal...a journal I've kept since 2003:
"I cut this out of Blackbook Magazine. WHY? Because it's a reminder that everyone in this Universe is connected (whether we realize it or not) to each other and God. This picture is how I envision God sees us, great points of LIGHT, all connected to each other, all beautiful (no matter what "sins" we've commited), and all glorious together."
The picture i was talking about in my journal is a piece done by artist, Angie Drakopoulous:
Another piece of his speech that struck a chord in me, was his appreciation to his ancestors. Ever since I was a teenager, I knew the importance of my ancestors. I think it's something ingrained into the Filipino-American culture. To always appreciate the family that came before you. To understand and give gratitude for the sacrifices they gave to make your life what it is today. Without them, I wouldn't be here.
And after my last grandpa passed away in 2003, I felt something. Like Voltron: Protector of the Universe! (ok, this is a geeky analogy, but on point nonetheless)
When my grandpa passed on to the other side, It was like Voltron must feel when each of the five Lions come together to create him/her. It was as if his soul infused with all my ancestors to guide and protect me. (To Western Christians, it's like the belief in Angels). I felt like I had another ally on my side. To help me along my God-Given path. One that would help look out for me. An ally that had my back! I feel this and I appreciate my ancestors.
Forest stated in an interview, "I wasn't sure what was going to happen tonight but I thought something magical was going to happen," Whitaker said backstage after receiving the award. "Because I could feel the breath on my neck and the tingling on my body. For me it is like my ancestors speaking to me and they are saying to me, 'We are with you.'"
And like Forest Whitaker, I too started to act, not for fame or money, but because I wanted to give something back to this world. To give to my audience. To share with an audience a piece of me. To wake up audiences around the world through my art. To be a vessel that gives a voice to others that don't have a chance to tell their stories. To in turn change the world positively. And I feel I can do that in my acting, writing, and comedic delivery.
And just like Mr. Whitaker...Someday when the Universe is ready and with help from God & my ancestors, i too will win an Oscar. No, not for Best Actress or even for Best Supporting Actress...But for Best Original Screenplay! :)
Dang, not only is he a BLessed soul with great intentions...but he also has a HOT wife
To watch his full acceptance speech, cut & paste this link into your browser:
http://www.firstshowing.net/2007/02/26/forest-whitakers-acceptance-speech/
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